Bleh!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My general sentiment hereafter until further notice is as follows...

Nothing can rain down on my parade.

Read: Nothing. No one.

So sa mga may (masasamang) balak, better luck next time.

Sorry nalang kayo, try harder if you will.

Bleh! :P

Saturday, May 26, 2007

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need."

Dr. Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy

My Own Eye Candy

Friday, May 25, 2007

Natutuwa talaga ako sa tuwing nakikita ko yung crush ko. Solve na ang araw ko. As in!

I think it's nice to have an eye candy. It gives me something to look forward to. Moreso it gives me that sense of excitement. Yung kilig ba.

Siyempre ako lang naman ang nakikilig noh? hehe

Wish ko lang mabunggo siya sa pader at sana pansinin naman niya ako. Wahaha.

Awww

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

On simple gestures that go a long way…

At dinner a while ago, it was just me and my dad left at the table and there were two mangoes. One was sweet and ripe while the other was just the exact opposite (it looked ripe na kasi so my dad had it cut na).

He finished before me and went up already since I was still busy eating my ice cream. It turns out my dad ate the unripe mango and left the sweet one for me to eat.

Na-touch naman ako.

On Work Currently

Friday, May 18, 2007

Our current workload right now is just unbelievable. I can't even find the time in between to drink water or go to restroom breaks! (O.A. ba? hehe) There's way too much work to do. Work seems to pile up by the day. Surprisingly though, I'm okay. I feel okay. In fact, all the ranting and complaining have been kept to a minimum for a week now. My officemate and I were just talking about how things seem to be generally more smooth sailing now. Really, it's too good to be true. We're all sort of like in a happy bubble these past few days. My officemate thinks something is up and our happy bubble won't last long. Well I don't want to jinx it though so I'm leaving it at just that.

Also, we will be having 2 new hires come June and for sure, it's going to be pretty interesting how things will play out.

I Have a Crush on You

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Not that I have the guts anyways but if only our culture dictated early on that it’s okay for women to initiate the first move then our lives would probably be so much easier. It sure beats the hell out of waiting and sometimes getting over the what if's and could have been's.

So what do you do if you have a crush on someone who may or may not know you even exist?

Nothing.

Well for a second or two, I thought about flashing my thousand megawatt smile but I think I’d end up looking more like an idiot. Nyehehe.

Pause Button

Monday, May 07, 2007

I'm putting everything on PAUSE for now. There’s a change of plans because things were suddenly shifting favorably towards my end. I gave it two chances and things surprisingly went my way on both occasions. Henceforth, I’m going to wait it out a little longer and see where the tide takes me. Bahala na. I’ll decide after our trip.

I'm in a chirpy mood right now because my officemate whose mandatory block leave coincides with mine was kind enough to reschedule hers. However, the hardest part of all was to get my boss to approve my additional 5 days leave aside from my mandatory, which I eventually got. It was obvious though that she wasn’t too happy about it. Well I couldn’t care less. It was either she approved or I resign.

Be that as it may, I’m looking forward to our trip. And did I mention I still have a job? Woohoo.

Friday, May 04, 2007

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need. "

Dr. Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy

M.O.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

I’m feeling mixed emotions right now. I feel relieved. I feel anxious. I feel excited. I feel unsure. In the next few days, I will be making a major decision. I’m not even sure if I’m making the right decision and if now is the right time. It has always been at the back of my mind for the past year and a half but I never actually did something about it – not until now. I convinced myself to stick it out a little longer as things might get better. I tried to postpone it as much as I could. In fairness, it wasn’t all that bad. I had my fair share of genuinely good experiences as well. However at the end of the day, there’s just way too much negativity and I ask myself if this is something that I can still deal with 60-70% of the time. I really don’t think I can anymore. The bad seems to be weighing down the good. Most importantly, I don’t think there’s enough room to grow anymore for me – especially not in this kind of environment. It seems like things are going from good to bad to worse. I don’t want to wait for things to be at its worst before I do something. Hence, I have decided with finality. While I’m leaving for good reasons, this was surely not an easy decision and needed a lot of serious consideration. Goodbyes are hard to do no matter what the circumstances are. I honestly still feel bad about leaving despite everything that has happened. But at the end of the day, you gotta do what you gotta do, right?