I Did It!

Monday, September 25, 2006

Yes, I've finally graduated from AIG Consumer Finance Group's Managament Associate Program aka Camp David. It's officially over and done with. I did it. I feel good and I feel relieved. It feels as if a huge truckload of pressure has been lifted off my shoulder. I had my final presentation piece this morning. It was by far the biggest presentation I've ever done - on my own. Not even our final presentation in Hong Kong (for the Regional execs) last year could even surpass this feat. I worked my butt off for this. I worked real hard. I went through a whole lot of shit just to get by. Buti nalang it went pretty well. I think I could have performed better though but okay na rin kasi I was expecting for the worst talaga. I'm happy because all the feedbacks that we got from both local and regional exceuctives were all positive so I'll take it as a good sign. Sabi ko nga, the future looks rosy for me. Maybe I'm still on a high but really the sun is starting to shine on my side. You should have seen me last week. I was so sabog. Some people in the office even commented that our faces look more "aliwalas" na daw compared to last week. I'm just so glad to have come this far. It wasn't easy but at least ngayon alam ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko pala.

Come Again?

Saturday, September 09, 2006

I don't see the point of listening to all the crap a person has to say to me, most especially if I've already heard it not just once or twice but for God knows how long. I mean, it's the same crap time and again. (1) I really don't want to participate in all the cursing and shouting. I don't curse to begin with and I was never a shouter anyway. (2) I just don't want to argue anymore. I'm tired of having to defend myself all the time – I sound like a broken record na nga at times. (3) What for if the other person refuses to listen? It's impossible to talk to close minded people as they already have their own pre-conceived notions and judgments. Your opinions wouldn't really matter anymore because everything falls on deaf ears. It's always their way and no other way. (4) I don't want to be part of their negative vibe. There's just too much anger and bitterness that it saps the energy right out of me. Sometimes it's just not worth it to go through all the trouble and hassle because I only end up irritated, frustrated and with a very bad day. So rather than going head to head, I stepped back and made all the effort to keep my mouth tightly shut. I purposely zoned out as I let the other person do all the yapping - as in nothing really registered to me and it felt good. I don't want to get affected with all the negative things being hurled at me. I don't want to bother explaining myself either. So from now on, they can say what they want to say. Kebs na ako. Basta ako...

It's less tiring this way.