Survivor

Monday, November 24, 2008

I'm done taking the diplomatic route at work. I'm so over it. It frustrates me how some people can be too inconsiderate and self serving at times. Everyone seems to have their own agenda. Screw the opinions and perceptions they have of me. If they couldn't care a rat's ass about me then why should I care too? It's about time that I start fighting for myself because who else will? I'm not a war freak at all. I'm not much of a complainer either. Most often than not, I'm too apathetic and indifferent - to a fault pa nga eh. As my sister says, you have to choose your battles. In a way, I'm like that also. I fight only if it's something that I feel strongly about, only if it's worth it.

I had to deal with a difficult boss in my previous job. It was more personal then; something that went beyond office walls and hours. This time around I have issues at work albeit it's nothing personal - yet. So for now, I'd like to think I'm still better off. But looking back and even amidst all these issues, I don't think I'll ever want to trade it back for my old job. Hell no. Ibang usapan na kasi if may halong personalan na. Well I guess it's part of the job to deal with difficult people from time to time. As a result of recent events, I'm learning to be more assertive and straightforward. I don't think I can please everyone anyway so why bother? Some people are really pushing me to the limits. I was never the type who'd thrive on conflicts and issues. In fact, I try to avoid conflict as much as I can but I think I'm now forced to assert and defend myself lest I get left behind or worse, get ran over.

Of course, I still try to do right thing without going all gung ho. However, I don't think being nice will do me any good in this dog eat dog world. It's survival of the fittest out there, being nice just won't cut it anymore.