Neyo Live

Friday, February 29, 2008

I have been looking forward to Neyo's concert for the last three weeks or so. I like most of his songs and I must say, his songs have some nice lyrics also. It's astig that I finally get to hear my favorite songs live. I especially like Because of You, Go On Girl, So Sick, Do You, Sexy Love and Can We Chill. Did you know he also wrote Mario's Let Me Love You, Rihanna's Umbrella and Beyonce's Irreplaceable? He's real good at what he's doing. Sayang lang kasi his concert was so short and bitin! I wouldn't mind sana if only he sang Hate That I Love You. Nevertheless, enjoy pa rin ako. Next on my list are Usher and Justin Timberlake! Heard they're also having their respective concerts here. Unfortunately, I'm going to miss Maroon 5 but I'm still keeping my fingers crossed and still hoping to score tickets on or before March 5.

Closing Chapters

Samahan ng mga Javanilla Addicts

It’s official. Today is my last working day at AIG. It hasn't really sunk in yet. I can’t believe that I would no longer be reporting to work come Monday. I think I still need to get used to the fact that I've finally ended the AIG chapter of my life and there's no turning back anymore. Hay, saying goodbye is never really easy no matter what the circumstances are and it doesn’t help at all that I tend to get emotionally attached. As I've mentioned before, 3 years is 3 years. It's not something that you forget or put aside easily. I’m feeling all sorts of mixed emotions right now. I feel sad. I feel excited. I feel anxious. I feel hopeful.

Javanilla Party! Sa uulitin, guys! =)

Natouch talaga ako sa mga gestures and reactions ng mga tao on my last day. It's ironic how all this time I thought I was just some random person in the office na parang wala lang so it makes me feel good to know that I've somehow made an impact pala on them. Thanks guys! For whatever its worth, I think I'm really going to miss everyone in AIG. Hope to see you guys around.

NBI Renewal 101

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

I went to SM Mega Mall early this morning in the hopes of having my NBI clearance renewed. Nakakatawa lang kasi there I was the eager beaver that I am all confident that it'll only take me a couple of minutes to finish everything when a semi-queue greeted me at the entrance of building A. It wasn't even 10:00 am yet! Nakakapagtaka lang talaga. Shopping early in the morning?! Oh common, that's way too much. Kahit strolling nga lang, ang OA na eh.

Ang comedy pa, the renewal kiosk was at building B! How could I have missed out on that small (but very important) detail?! Stupid me. To think, I frequent Mega Mall's building B on a daily basis. Sheesh, my sense of direction is very poor - I must improve. So as if I was part of some marathon, I started doing some serious brisk walking with a little sprinting from building A to building B - in heels, mind you! However when I finally got to the renewal kiosk, I was so surprised to see that there was already a long queue before me. I thought what the heck, maybe the line isn't that long yet since it's still early so I walked up to the 2nd floor, 3rd floor, 4th floor until I didn't bother anymore because it was pretty obvious that I wasn't going to get my NBI clearance renewed anymore. Well not unless I wanted to waste my entire whole day lining up until sawa. Grabe saan kaya nanggaling yung mga tao? Hello noh, kung sa paagahan lang ang basehan, I was already patiently queuing outside the doors of mega building A at exactly 9:50 am. Hey! I was early, in fairness to me.

Well to cut my misadventure short, I decided to try it out at our city hall in Mandaluyong. As it turns out, it only took me a couple of minutes to renew my NBI clearance. Ganun ka simple lang pala eh! Geez luiz.

Exit Ko

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Dang it! I shared more than I intended. Hmm...definitely more than I should have. In as much as I wanted to exit with grace and composure, I could just not hold it all in any longer after much prodding and maneuvering. Grabe I wasn't prepared at all. I was expecting it would be just like any other normal exit with the usual BS's. However once the tears started, I just lost it. Hay, my emotions got the best of me this time. If there's any consolation, at least I was honest.

Finally

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

CHANGE

"The important thing is this: to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become."

Charles Du Bos takes full aim at the infamous "comfort zone", wherein we may not like where we are, and we might even grumble about it, but we choose to hang on to what we know rather than take a leap forward into uncertainty. Yet it is only in letting go of that we have that we can grab hold of what we might become. Better. Kinder. Happier. More successful. Healthier. More self-confident. Whatever transformation we wish to make, we must first leave behind the old before becoming the new.

I finally did it! I guess this is it. There's no turning back now. It was a hard thing to do but you gotta do what you gotta do, right? I had to remove whatever emotional attachment I have for this company and its people just so I could follow through. At the end of it all, I don’t want to look back with regrets for not having had the guts to pursue greater goals for myself. More so, I’m single and I'm young albeit not getting any younger anymore (lol!) and so if any, now is the best time to take risks and explore new things. Opportunities do not present itself often so I do not want to let this one pass just because of mixed emotions and whatever fears of uncertainty that I may have. Despite all the doubts and hesitations, I believe that moving on will do me more good than harm. 3 years is 3 years but maybe moving out of my comfort zone is exactly what I need now. Hey change can be a good thing too, you know.

Whatever Works

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

During our usual Saturday lunch, I got some flack over something that really is nothing to begin with. Hence...my point of observation.

Point of observation: Older people are more resistant to change. That is, because they seem to be narrower minded. Well at least the older people that I know. They continue to impose the old norm defying all sorts of logical reasoning. Sometimes it gets so frustrating and twisted already, seriously. All I’m saying is we should be more open minded. We should not be restricted to the confines of the old. We shouldn’t completely disregard the new in favor of the old just because. Old norms exist to serve as a guide but we should not be blinded into thinking that it is the be all and end all of everything.

While the old norms have undoubtedly been the practice of many generations, it is utter foolishness and stupidity to think that it is full proof. Times are constantly changing. Therefore, it is very important for us to be able to adapt and readjust. What may have worked before may not necessarily work now. More so what may have worked for you may not exactly work for me. Heck, what may have worked for the majority does not even give me any guarantee at all!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for the old norm. However, we should never let these norms define the persons that we are nor should we let these norms limit our friendships and/or relationships and other life’s great potentials; take love and happiness, for instance.

What's It Gonna Be?

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I’m currently faced with the daunting task of having to make a decision. Mind you, it’s a huge decision – one that can make or break you. Well as in this case, I suppose make or break…ME? Yikes. This probably is a no brainer decision for others most especially for the few selected people in the know who have been privy to my endless and unedited tales of (FILL IN THE BLANKS). In fact, some people are already decided. They have decided without even batting an eyelash. See…they’re THAT sure. I guess I can’t blame them since they’ve been witnesses to my never ending horror slash sob stories. However despite the decisions that were already made for me, I’m not entirely sold on this matter. Well at least, not yet.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I was given a tight deadline on this one. Needless to say, I no longer have the luxury of procrastination (hehe). I know I may sound a tad too O.A. but oh common, this is my life that we’re talking about here. This decision can shift the course of my life! This decision can either put me in deeper shit or in even more unnecessary misery. I can’t, I don’t want to and I definitely can’t afford for the life of me make any hasty decisions now. The decision may seem pretty clear and obvious once all the facts are laid out on the table but I still don’t want to make any sweeping judgments. I need as much advice as I can get but I still want to be able to make my own decision. Ultimately, it is very important for me to be able to make the final decision on my own.

Given the circumstances - past and present, I thought this was going to be an easy breezy decision. I actually didn’t think it’ll be this hard given the crap that I’ve been through. I’ve been sort of setting myself up for this as far back as 2006. Well now that the moment of truth has come, I surprisingly find myself in troubled waters. It feels as if I’m at a crossroad once again. Mahirap din pala in spite of everything that has happened. In all fairness kasi, it wasn’t all bad. However potentially exciting things can be, I guess the fear of the unknown and the unfamiliar worries me the most.

Pending my decision, I can’t give away any more information than I already have. Lest I expose all my playing cards or whatever aces I have, it’s in my best interest as of the moment to sound as obscure and confusing - although I really am confused and unsure of everything!

I guess I’ve realized now that letting go and moving on is never really going to be easy no matter what the circumstances are - no matter how much hate, resentment and hurt you once had. It’s just hard to let go of something you’ve already grown so familiar with. After doing some rational thinking of my own, I’ve actually decided that I’m ready to move on. It’s time to move on. I think moving on will do me more good than harm.

However, my moving on is not a done deal yet. The thing is, my moving on will still be highly dependent upon another make or break kind of decision. I’ve been seriously contemplating on how to play my cards right for the past couple of days. Despite the temptation, I don’t want to settle just yet. I’m not being unreasonable at all or anything but I really truly absolutely believe I deserve more. Therefore having said that, I guess I just might have to take a huge risk on this one. I'll feel more comfortable and I'll feel better about myself knowing that at least I tried and I fought hard. And if, after all this hoopla, it doesn’t work out, I'm going to take it as it is without any regrets whatsoever. The way I see it kasi, if it's meant to be then it's meant to be...yun lang yun.

Music and Lyrics + (Love)

Friday, January 18, 2008

I am super loving Chris Brown's With You. Nice song. Parang ang sarap ma-in love. Sigh.

Another song that I'm also loving is Neyo's Go On Girl. So sad this song. Sometimes talaga you just have to let go and move on. Hay, ang hirap siguro.

Ironically, I'm loving both songs right now. Both songs have very nice lyrics albeit the obvious disparity.

Hay, Love is such a complicated matter.

But does it really have to be complicated?

Isn't Love supposed to be simple and straightforward?

Or maybe it really is. WE just tend to over complicate a lot of things more so when it comes to special matters of the heart.