My Thinking Problem

Saturday, September 08, 2007

I have a lot on my mind right now. My thoughts seem to be working overtime these past couple of days – weeks even.

Shit happened. I wasn’t really blind sighted. In fact, I sort of saw it coming and did my best to deal albeit my best wasn’t good enough. Oh well shit happens. So what else is new?

On the other end, I’m wishing for a couple of things to happen that well, unfortunately didn’t. If only I knew how or where to start or if I really could, I would’ve probably already made it happen by now. Ha! yeah right. (Chicken!).

So there goes my thinking plate. It’s overflowing with a good mix of intelligent, meaningful, trivial and senseless thoughts – nothing that I can’t handle though. In fairness, yakang-yaka naman (hehe).

My game plan as of the moment is to temporarily detach myself from my thoughts. I don’t think I want to think about things right now. Sheesh, you see my point? (Oops! - no pun intended) I did it again just right now. Thinking too much, that is. Having two think’s in a sentence isn’t a good start (hehe). I have to detach myself because I don’t want to overanalyze things. Well it’s more like I have to stop overanalyzing things. Heck, some things may not even mean or worth anything at all. So I'm going to take a hiatus from too much thinking. I have to. Believe me, sometimes too much thinking doesn't help solve anything at all.

The more important matter is I don’t want to succumb to the pressures imposed by whatever thing/event/norm/belief/person/s. I don’t want to pressure myself either. Again, it’s more like I have to learn to stop pressuring myself too much. I need to give myself a break. I have to.

So basta steady lang. I’m just going to take it easy. I'm going to blow up my salbabida, go with the flow, enjoy the ride and see where the tide takes me.

Missed Opportunities

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Something I've picked up from watching Evan Almighty…

God: Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

We often doubt and ask for more thinking that our prayers are left unanswered. Unfortunately, we fail to recognize the subtle signs thrown our way because admittedly, we can be difficult and demanding (and lazy!) by wanting everything to be served to us on a silver platter. Little do we know that sometimes our prayers are answered in the form of opportunities that sadly, for too many times we've taken for granted.

Wiped Out

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

I was all by my lonesome self for the entire whole day because nobody was able to report to work today because of the heavy rains last night.

Wiped out is exactly what happened to our department today.

Who would've known that I would be the last (wo)man standing in our department.

Even I surprised myself and everyone else for that matter.

Opposite Forces

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Sometimes we have to force ourselves to do things that we don’t want to do whereas sometimes we are forced to do things that we don’t want to do…

Well I’m currently being forced to do something that I don’t want to do.

I would like to think I have the freedom of choice. Hence, I’m going to exercise and assert my so-called rights or so I tried.

As it turned out, my decision wasn’t that popular with the majority. Needless to say, I was getting a lot of flack. Can they really blame me for overreacting?

Hayayay…

So to save everyone the trouble, I thought maybe I should’ve just agreed. How bad can it get, right? It may seem like a potentially embarrassing or humiliating experience waiting to happen but I guess I’ll just have to learn to take everything in jest.

Besides if it’s going to make the majority happy and if it’s supposedly for my own good then who am I to complain, right?

It wouldn’t hurt me either so okay, fine.

Bahala na si Batman.

Astig!

Monday, July 02, 2007

Astig ang Transformers. Porma movie. Coolness.

In my books, it is by far the best movie this year (along with Blood Diamond - I gotta give props to Leonardo Di Caprio).

Walang binatbat sila Spiderman, Fantastic Four, Captain Jack Sparrow and Harry Potter.

Sana more characters from the 80's will make a comeback.

To Be or Not To Be

Saturday, June 02, 2007

We admittedly all have our faults and nuisances. Nobody is perfect but it shouldn’t stop us from wanting and striving to become better people. It’s but human nature to want to change for the better.

If something isn’t working then I try to fix it.

If something isn’t going my way then I try to retrace and redirect myself.

If something isn’t right then I try to correct it.

If something isn’t good for me then I try to stay away from it.

If my efforts aren’t enough then I try to go the extra mile.

If I'm not good at something then I study, learn and I practice.

If I lose then I try to accept defeat as gracefully as possible.

If I’m getting into a lot of fights and misunderstandings then I try to adjust and compromise.

If it’s my fault then I try to acknowledge it.

If mahirap akong pakisamahan then I try to adapt and cooperate.

If my actions are going to affect the majority then I try to be considerate.

If I need help then I admit it and I ask. And if someone offers help then I accept.

Bottom line is, we should have to be more open minded. We must. We have to listen to ourselves but more importantly, we also have to learn to listen to what others have to say about us – especially those who are close to us. Sometimes we can be too hard headed, thinking that we know what’s best; thinking that others are out there to get back at us. We become blinded by half truths that we’ve created for our own satisfaction, not knowing that we’re already way off the mark. The truth is a bitter friend after all. However, it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to get another perspective. It may hurt. It can even be ugly but it will make us stronger and eventually make us want to change for the better. Undoubtedly, we are all work-in-progress. Our lives need constant fine tuning especially with all the things happening around us. We should continously reflect and reevaluate on our lives and make the necessary actions towards our betterment.

Change is good. It can be good. We should all want to be better people. We must want to become better people.

Out of Office

Friday, June 01, 2007

Today's my last day at work and I'll be on my mandatory block leave until the 3rd week of June. We'll be leaving on Monday for Europe. I can't wait to go on vacation. I need to take the time out for some well deserved R & R & R - that's some much needed rest, relaxation and recreation for me. Yahoo!

Bleh!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My general sentiment hereafter until further notice is as follows...

Nothing can rain down on my parade.

Read: Nothing. No one.

So sa mga may (masasamang) balak, better luck next time.

Sorry nalang kayo, try harder if you will.

Bleh! :P