SMILE!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Just want to share an email I got from a friend...

Every Little Smile can touch Somebody's heart
May YOU find hundreds of reasons to smile today and
May YOU be the reason for someone else to smile always
Have a nice day......

I Crush

Thursday, November 29, 2007

I don't know why I get super nervous whenever you’re near.

If only you knew...

In as much as I try to act cool and unaffected, I end up getting this fluttering feeling in my stomach.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we knew each other…

Sometimes I wonder how it would be like if we were friends...

Sometimes I secretly hope we'd get to work together on similar projects...

Really, I wish I’d get the chance to get to know you.

However from the way things are now, chances are...parang malabo yata.

Sigh.

No Comment!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Contrary to popular perception, you don't need to always have a retort or as the case may be you don't need to always have the last retort - most especially when it's pertaining to something very shallow and trivial; mas lalo na kapag senseless (duh!). It's not worth the headache. Sometimes it's better to just save yourself the trouble. So why not try your hardest to just keep your mouth as airtight as your will power can control. In short, huwag ng patulan (tsk tsk!). I believe it takes a bigger person to be able to swallow one's pride and back down as quietly as possible. If it's not worth it then walk away. Most indeed, the bigger person can take the punches without having to hit back.

"The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right place, but to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment."

- Lady Dorothy Nevill -

So ngayon, ang masasabi ko lang is uh...eh...

No comment.

LSS

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

I'm addicted to Maroon 5's Won't Go Home Without You.

I lubz it!

Other random songs on my playlist right now...
1. Hero/Heroine - Boys Like Girls
2. Dice - Finley Quaye (feat. William Orbit)
3. Baby Love - Nicole Scherzinger
4. Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
5. Apologize - Timbaland presents One Republic
6. I'm Like A Lawyer... - Fallout Boy
7. Take My Hand and Magbalik - Callalily
8. Just Want You To Know - Backstreet Boys
9. Bad Habits - Michael Tolcher
10. Happy Birthday - The Click Five
11. Bubbly - Colbie Caillat
12. It's OK, Whole Again and The Last Goodbye - Atomic Kitten
13. Crazy Love - Kim Chiu
14. Falling - Nsync
15. You're the One, Let's Ride, Please Don't Go and Superman - Brown Boy

One More Chance

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

We were running late and we practically had to run a marathon just to catch the first day showing of One More Chance this afternoon. It ain’t called Mega mall for nothing. It was worth it though because I hate missing a movie's beginning.

It was surprising to see a sizeable crowd of eager beavers like us who were just as excited and jologs (hehe) as we were. There was a freakin’ line at 12 in the afternoon?! Oh common! Furthermore, the cinema was unusually full. I should know because we were present at the first day showing of Aga Muhlach and company’s A Love Story and we didn't even have to fall in line.

The movie was just what I expected it to be. There was nothing Oscar worthy about it but it lived up to my expectations nonetheless. Nakaka-tawa. Nakaka-iyak. Nakaka-kilig.

For whatever reasons that we may have, don’t we all want to have more chances? More chances to get to know someone. More chances to fall in love. More chances to express our feelings. More chances to pursue our true happiness. More chances to fulfill our dreams. More chances to learn. More chances to face our fears. More chances to correct our mistakes. More chances to make things right. More chances to prove ourselves and the list can go on forever…

Having thought about it, I understand better now that we don’t get to have more chances maybe because if we do, we’d be more complacent, we’d take our chances for granted and most importantly, we’ll keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over again. How then will we be able to learn?

So I think I understand better now that we don’t really need to wish for more chances because maybe all we’ll ever need is just one chance.

And it's up to us not to screw it up…

Game Face

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I think it was meant as a generous gesture.

So why do I feel disturbed rather than grateful?

I guess sometimes we can’t stop the urge to question and be suspicious of other people’s motives and intentions. It’s just unfortunate though how sometimes the purest and sincerest of intentions are tarnished and put to waste just because we chose to be believe otherwise. Blame it on human nature. Blame it on our inner CSI. Maybe it’s some sort of coping and defense mechanism that we use to shield us from the potential hurt and pain and not to mention the river of tears that come along with it.

After all, the name of the game is survival of the fittest. It’s a dog eat dog world where every man is for himself. These days it’s hard to distinguish the real ones from the fakers. It’s hard to determine whether someone is just faking it or not. You have to learn to be sly and cunning – but fair. Kailangan talaga madiskarte ka otherwise it’s game over.

Maybe I should just take it for what it is – nothing more, nothing less. No underlying meaning. No hidden agenda. Nothing in exchange. Perhaps I was just thinking too much. Maybe I was just overanalyzing things. Maybe I was just overreacting. I really don’t know anymore. I can’t trust my gut feel on this one as I’ve previously mentioned it doesn’t have much of a track record so to speak.

As much as I want to be left out, I guess I’m left with no other choice but to start playing the game (that others are playing). However, I’m not going to resort to any dirty and underhanded tricks - in as much as my conscious mind can control. Sorry guys, I’m going to play clean and fair. In the meantime though, all that you're getting from me is benefit of the doubt until such time that I've strategized and sorted out my game plan.

Eye Candy Fix

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

I think no caffeine fix will match the energy rush that I get everytime I see my crush. I was feeling sort of disappointed and uninspired already because I haven't really seen him around for the last couple of weeks. Just seeing him brightens up my day, it never fails to more than make up for whatever crappy day, if any, that I was having.

You know what, we should all find reasons to be happy - no matter how small, shallow or trivial.

It's always good to be happy.

Yep, it's good to be happy even for the smallest and shallowest of things.

Dorky Me

Monday, November 05, 2007

I'm such a dork, really. This Regional VP, who I consider as my mentor when I was still in Hong Kong, is here in Manila for three days. I was caught off guard when he asked me if I wanted to join him for coffee. I think he was supposed to have coffee with my boss but she begged off. Sheesh, I couldn't even muster a straight and decent answer. Wala ata akong naisagot na matino except for "maybe tomorrow" (naihabol ko lang when he asked one last time). Wish ko lang talaga hindi ko siya na-offend in any way. Although feel ko na-offend ko siya (ayayay!). As much as I wanted to have coffee, it was already late in the afternoon plus I had a ton of deliverables and I didn't want to go home after dinner. I was also feeling kinda diyahe because I tend to get intimidated with people of his stature/position (even if he was my mentor), all the more now that it's a one-on-one. In addition, I was just trying to give my boss some courtesy at that time. I mean, kung siya nga hindi nag-coffee, ako pa kaya? Kinda kapalmuks naman diba? Besides my boss couldn't give me a straight and outright answer if it was okay. So it was obviously a hint from her that she wasn't okay with it. I was having this conversation though with my officemate (she also went to Hong Kong) and she told me that if she were in my shoes, she would've taken the invitation. It wasn't really her problem anymore (and it shouldn't be) if my boss doesn't want to have coffee. Hmm...I couldn't agree more. I really think it was a wasted opportunity to catch up with this person, our mentor. He doesn't really visit that often here and sino ba namang Regional VP ang mag-iinvite sa amin or sa akin as in this case for coffee? Uhmm...wala? Sayang. Oh well, maybe next time - that is if there is a next time.

All Worked Out

Saturday, November 03, 2007

I was finally able to successfully drag my lazy ass to the treadmill after months and months of postponing. It has been long overdue so it was a good start for me. I had a couple of days off work so I had some leeway (no more excuses this time). I can't imagine how I'd used to run the treadmill almost everyday of the week. Heck, I was even one of the pioneer members of Fitness First in Libis (i.e., the first branch in the Philippines). I was a gym rat. Well back then, that is. I even used to play badminton every week. Geez, whatever happened to my fitness regimen after all these years?! (hehe). I guess it went kaput as soon as I started working my way up the corporate ladder (I'm still at the bottom though, haha). I had a really good workout awhile ago. I think it was just what I needed - I needed some endorphins especially after recent events that have started to slow and bring me down. So now I plan to squeeze in some quality time with the treadmill at least once or twice a week starting today. Wish me luck.

And oh yeah, enough of the drama shiz and all these conspiracy theories and what have you. I've just had about enough. It seems useless and futile to even try. Next, please.

Just to Clarify

Friday, November 02, 2007

If something wrong or untrue has been said about me, I’d rather know. No matter how messy and ugly, I want to know. I want to know even if it’s tantamount to opening Pandora’s box.

I want to know so I can defend myself properly. I want to know so I can clarify things and prove them wrong. I don’t want to fight - not even close. Thank God, I’m not an angry person. I can talk and sit through an entire confrontation without having to shout, curse or resort to any physical action.

I’m a person of principles (and opinons). If the issue concerns me and most especially if it’s totally nowhere near the freakin' truth, I will not let it pass just for the sake of peace and harmony. It’s so unfair to jump the gun and accuse me of saying something that I never actually said or as the case may be of doing something that I never did. I’m not going to take things sitting down and pretend as if everything's rosy and picture perfect, as if I didn’t hear anything or as if nothing happened. I’m willing to get down and dirty just to sort things out and get to the bottom of the issue. I will stand up for what I believe is right and for the principles I hold. What is important to me is being able to speak my mind and get my message across. After which, wala na akong pakialam ano pa man ang sasabihin nila patungkol sa akin. They already have preconceived biases and judgments about me anyway and nothing I say or do can change their minds. I really can’t do anything anymore if some people are so stubborn and close minded. I can only do so much, you know.

And if ever I was wrong, I'll be the bigger person and admit my mistake. It’s not easy but we should all learn to humble ourselves. I wouldn’t lash out on other people for my own mistakes. I wouldn’t drag other issues to cover for my own mistakes. Most of all, I wouldn’t use anger as my defense. Don't get me wrong, it's normal to get angry. What's not normal is to let anger control you and get the best out of you.

Before, I really can’t understand how some people can get so angry to the point na kulang nalang kakainin na sila ng buhay ng galit nila (yep that bad!). However through the years, I've observed and I've come to comprehend (note: not understand) that oftentimes people are most angry when they have erred and wronged someone else. Isn't it ironic?

If only we can do away with anger and all the other excess baggage, we'd most probably be able to do so much more. More so our lives would be so much lighter, easier and better. To borrow a quote that I've read somewhere, “Don’t get angry, get smart.” For the record, I'm not angry and I wasn't angry. All I wanted to do was to clarify the issue, defend myself (by getting all the facts straight from the horse's mouth) and prove you wrong, which I believe I eventually did. You didn't have to get all angry.

Boxed Out

Sunday, October 28, 2007

I hate it when people try to put me in a box.

Just hate it, seriously.

You think you know me but you don’t.

Just because we’re different, it doesn’t make you any better than me.

Just because I may deviate from the usual or what is perceived to be usual, it doesn’t make you right either.

Believe me, I’m more than you think I am and no box can ever define the person that I am and limit the potential that I can achieve.

The box is all yours.

Thanks anyway.

Choosing Between the Heart and the Mind

Saturday, October 27, 2007

When it comes to love, relationships and life in general, should we use our mind more than our heart? Would it be more adviseable to be more rational and/or practical rather than go all emotional? Does it have to be this complicated, really? Of course, it would be best if we could create a perfect or at least a good enough balance and sense of our rationales and emotions. However the fact of the matter is, our rationales and emotions usually don't go hand in hand. Most often than not, they work in exact opposite directions so much so we end up a hell lot more lost and confused than ever. Therefore, should I just go with my gut feel even if it has a hit and miss ratio of, if I were being optimistic - 20 to 70 or if I were to be conservative, 10 to 90?

I know I can never be sure of the outcome but if and when that I do get stuck in such a situation where I would have to choose or make a decision (hopefully not or never or nothing serious if ever), I wish I'd always know what I want and that I'd have the courage to go for it and fight for it, if necessary. I wish I'd trust myself more and be bold enough to face fear, failure and rejection in the eye. And if at the end of it all I was wrong, I wish I'd still have the strength to pick up the pieces and get back up again. I think for whatever its worth though, the real important thing is to be able to live life with no (or little) regrets in spite of the consequences of the risks we took - and didn't take.

On Perspective

Thursday, October 25, 2007

A glass half empty is a glass half full.

It’s simply a matter of perspective.

So which is it going to be?

Uh...half full?

No matter how tough the going gets, I believe that at the end of the day I still have a whole lot more reasons to be thankful for.

So yeah...mine's definitely half full.

Fear-less and Faith-full

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

After the very unfortunate incident in G2, I can’t help but be a tad more paranoid than usual when going to malls most especially when we go about our usual lunch and/or coffee break at Mega or Shang. Nakakapraning man, I was in Shang Monday and Mega today so hurray to me for braving the malls so soon. This, after giving out a press release last Sunday that I would avoid the malls at least for the entire week (hehe). However, I felt that the atmosphere in the mall was sort of different last Monday or most probably praning lang talaga ako (hehe). It may not be quite clear yet whether the incident was a blast or bomb, accidental or intentional but I think it has surely, to varying degrees, sowed fear in the general public – myself included (Oo praning ako!). Hassle talaga.

The good thing though is people seem unfazed as the malls aren’t exactly empty as most would probably expect. I guess in all aspects of our life, we shouldn’t let fear stop us from doing what we want, from speaking our mind, from expressing our feelings, from fulfilling our heart's desires, from living life. We have just got to keep the faith – always.

Never Shall We Fail

Sunday, October 07, 2007

The Animo spirit lives on...

We're back. We're one. We're #1. Wooohooo! Despite the criticisms, we were definitely the better team. We are the champions and nobody can take that away from us. Wooohooo! Ang saya.

I've been sporting this desktop wallpaper ever since our win against Ateneo. Coolness. Check it out!This was taken during our all or nothing game against Ateneo. I'm somewhere in the middle in the sea of green. You can find me second row right smack at the middle of the lower box section. You may want to use a magnifying glass though. Haha.

The Week That Was

Friday, October 05, 2007

Thank God it’s Friday. Thank God the week is over. Phew!

Sans for Monday (Yep, still rejoicing from Sunday’s win over Ateneo), this week wasn’t all that good for me. It pretty much went downhill from Monday.

Recap:

Monday was really good. I was in very high spirits. I was in a celebratory mood. Fearless forecast of my officemates last Friday was La Salle was going to lose to Ateneo. Naturally, I was the only one betting on La Salle to win. And of course, we won! Keep the faith nga.

I can’t remember anything from Tuesday so it was okay, I guess.

Wednesday was when I started feeling sick. As soon as I hopped off my bed, I wasn’t feeling well already. I had to endure the entire whole day and try my best to shrug and shake the sick feeling off. It had been a tiring day as well with all the work that I had to do and I was also having some confusion on this certain project. I think the workload sort of aggravated my being sick. Worse, the day continued to drag on even as I got home already because I got two missed calls, a text, two phone calls and a text again from my boss. And yeah, a not so good letter was also waiting for me when I got home. The first time my boss called I didn’t answer because I was having dinner. I got home late for dinner as it is. I need a break! As a result of my non-answer, I then got a text to which I once again didn’t reply to. As I got off the shower, I had another missed call and this time a phone call at home. I was thinking what does she so urgently need from me that can’t wait until tomorrow? Eventually I had to give in to her calls as yes, you guess it right...she did call again. As if that wasn’t enough, she texted past 9 pm if I could still give her a call. I mean, seriously?! I had no energy left – kumbaga empty tank, no batt, no load. I was in bed already even before the clock struck 9 pm. With regards to the letter, I guess it's just not meant to be. I'll just have to try and try again until I succeed.

Thursday was the worst. I think I’ve never gotten into so much trouble for going to work. Early in the morning, I got several very irate calls and a long angry (and unreasonable and illogical) text from my mom as she specifically told me the night before to skip work and get some rest. I also had a missed call from my dad. Sheesh, I was feeling better already so I decided to go to work already. I wasn’t really trying to be some martyr (duh!). More so I had a couple of deliverables (hello? hinahanap nga ako ng boss ko diba?) so I’d surely be condemned for not going to work. Coincidentally also, it was DLSU vs UE finals so they’d surely think I skipped work for the game. I undeniably wanted to watch the game live real badly but I’ve already decided days before that I won’t skip work anymore (will power!) so I didn't order tickets anymore. I definitely don’t want to give them the chance or opportunity to think negatively about me most especially I wasn't really planning on doing some mischief in the first place. My conscience is clear (hehe). Puwede pa siguro or matatanggap ko pa if talagang manonood ako ng game live noh.

Well as if thinking that going to work would save my ass, boy was I wrong. Later in the day, I got into huge trouble with my boss. She was so freakin’ pissed at me. She was really loud about it. I think the entire floor must’ve already heard her. It doesn’t help that she keeps on repeating my name (Candice...yadi yadi yada. Candice...blah blah blah - with a matching exasperated and irritated tone). She even had to call the entire department for an emergency meeting. Yeah...whatever.

My officemate was telling me after that my boss was demeaning and I guess she was surprised or questioning why I had no reaction at all. I didn’t even complain or make a fuss out of it as I would’ve probably normally done. Honestly, I wasn’t feeling anything anymore at that point. I was just so resigned that day. I had to deal with my mom in the morning and in the afternoon, I had to deal with my boss. I was so over this whole situation. Kebs na talaga ako, as in. I was already looking forward to my bed (hehe). Surprisingly wala na talaga akong pakialam.

Friday was going to be a good day - I thought. It was supposed to be better since my boss had to attend a training in Makati – that was more than enough reason to rejoice, seriously! It was all good until I got my hands burned in KFC. I accidentally poured hot gravy in my hands. It hurt so much. Grabe talaga. Buti nalang the manager reacted quickly. The funny thing is, the manager had the ointment for burns and a cold compress ready so I can only infer that this wasn't the first time that this sort of thing happened. I must say safety hazard ang gravy station ng KFC. Beware guys!

My officemates were telling me that it’s a good thing that it's Friday already since my luck is kinda running low already. They were joking that maybe this was as a result of my being too happy last Monday. Hehe kasalanan bang magsaya? So does this mean I'll have to tone down on the happiness level? Should I lie-low on the happiness front? Nah, happy days are here to stay. So after all the hullabaloo, here's to nothing but better days ahead...I hope!

Hail to De La Salle!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Go La Salle! Woooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooo!

Sorry, I don't mean to gloat and I don't want to be a sore winner (lalo na loser) but masyado lang talaga ako masaya. I'm still in such a high after all the cheering awhile ago. Pagbigyan niyo na ako, please. Hehehe.

La Salle won!!! Woohoo! Ang importante pasok na kami sa finals. Nevermind the critics, the naysayers and of course the sourgrapers, we have the last say (and laugh - bwahahaha!) now. Kahit ano pa sabihin nila we won fair and square. Bragging rights is ours until the next season at least. Well in my honest to goodness observation lang naman, generally hindi talaga mahilig magyabang ang mga La Sallista so the Ateneo people need not worry. Siyempre better if we win the championship but sobrang okay and malaking achievement na ito since (1) losing to Ateneo would be really heartbreaking and (2) playing against Ateneo wasn't all easy especially for those times when we almost had the win. Undeniably, all games were evenly matched and played. Both teams fought real hard. In all fairness, magaling din talaga ang Ateneo. However it should be noted that this season, we won when it mattered most. On our two wins, we won when we had to earn the right to the twice to beat advantage and today, we won when we had to earn the right to the finals. Galing. Props to Coach Franz and the entire DLSU team and management. Hard work and team work talaga.

Animo La Salle!

* Note: The pictures were taken from the DLSU Pep Squad's routine during halftime. Astig. FYI for Non-La Sallians, these phrases are excerpts of our alma mater hymn.

Work vs Watch

Friday, September 28, 2007

I think I may have gotten to a little trouble for opting to watch the game live yesterday rather than attending a meeting that I was already pre-assigned to days before. I may very well be on the bad side of...take note! the boss of my boss now. Sheesh, it’s tough as it is already being on the bad side of my boss, what more now?

Yeah I know my priorities are all jumbled right now but it wasn’t as if I had a critical role in the meeting anyway. I think I would’ve only wasted the time away daydreaming. Hay, I'm not sure if my officemates were able to cover up for me as I asked them to.

Oh well, what can I do? I really wanted to watch the game live more so getting to score tickets to the game is like finding a needle in a haystack. As in this case, more like finding diamonds because we were able to score good seats.

Heck…even if La Salle lost, I’d still choose to watch the game live regardless of the repurcussions at work. It was so worth it.

Blah

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I don’t know why but I’ve been feeling kinda lethargic slash sluggish these past two days. Case in point, I missed my alarm this morning. I must’ve unconsciously turned it off, forgetting to press on the snooze button. Instead, I woke up to the sound of my sister’s alarm which was set to 8:25 am. Napasarap ata yung tulog ko. Wowowee! I had close to an hour’s worth of extra sleep (hehe). I've accepted the fact that I was late already and I was no super(wo)man or flash or speedy gonzales - take your pick. Nonetheless, I still had to "diligently" rush to work to beat 9:00 am. It’s a good thing SMPC isn’t that far from the house. Phew!

Hay for some reason, I’m feeling out of it. I feel lazy! I don’t have the drive as of the moment. I must’ve lost it along the way. Hopefully, the next couple of days/weeks/months will be better. I think I need something to get me going – some sort of inspiration siguro or whatever. I don't want to go all emotional and senti again so I'll stop now and leave it at whatever (hehe).

In the meantime though, music is my energizer. See what’s on top of my playlist right now:

1. Timbaland feat. Francisco and Keri Hilson – The Way I Are
2. Kanye West - Stronger
3. 50 Cent feat. Justin Timberlake – She Wants It (Ayo Technology)
4. Amber – Back Into You
5. Rihanna feat. Neyo – Hate That I Love You
6. Kanye West feat. T. Pain - Good Life

7. Nelly – Whadsyaname
8. Gym Class Heroes – Cupids Chokehold
9. Toni Gonzaga – I’ve Fallen For You
10. Dashboard Confessional - Stolen

11. Faber Drive – Tongue Tied
12. Sum 41 – Pieces (Piano Acoustic)

13. Quietdrive - Rush Together and I Lie Awake

I'm usually partial to Alternative and R&B but for some weird reason and with the exception of a couple of songs, I’m on hip-hop mode right now. I'm loving hip-hop! I hope Timbaland, Kanye and the rest of the gang will continue to keep the beats and sounds going.

Green All the Way

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Congrats to Ateneo. We may have lost but it was undeniably a game we fought hard for. I was practically at the edge of my seat as it went down the wire. I super love watching the games live. I especially love the school spirit - ibang klase kasi talaga! School pride is at its best - ang galing talaga. Bilib ako sa school pride ng mga tao, mine included! Also everytime I watch, it feels as if I get to temporarily escape from reality and get to set or forget other things aside and just relax and enjoy myself - in the true sense of the word.

I'm still hoping though that we'll still have a good chance of getting in to the finals. Just the same, win or lose...solid Green Archer ako all the way. I'm too damn proud to be a part of the La Sallian community. Animo La Salle!

Sorry, diehard eh (hehe).

Game Na

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Aside from looking forward (more like hoping) to seeing my crush everyday (kung sinisuwerte), I’m looking forward to tomorrow’s game between La Salle and Ateneo. We were very fortunate enough to score tickets – second row seats, mind you! Special thanks to uncle Andrew and auntie Kathie. I’m so thrilled and excited. Well at least there’s something to look forward to…

I hope La Salle wins too. Go La Salle!

My Thinking Problem

I have a lot on my mind right now. My thoughts seem to be working overtime these past couple of days – weeks even.

Shit happened. I wasn’t really blind sighted. In fact, I sort of saw it coming and did my best to deal albeit my best wasn’t good enough. Oh well shit happens. So what else is new?

On the other end, I’m wishing for a couple of things to happen that well, unfortunately didn’t. If only I knew how or where to start or if I really could, I would’ve probably already made it happen by now. Ha! yeah right. (Chicken!).

So there goes my thinking plate. It’s overflowing with a good mix of intelligent, meaningful, trivial and senseless thoughts – nothing that I can’t handle though. In fairness, yakang-yaka naman (hehe).

My game plan as of the moment is to temporarily detach myself from my thoughts. I don’t think I want to think about things right now. Sheesh, you see my point? (Oops! - no pun intended) I did it again just right now. Thinking too much, that is. Having two think’s in a sentence isn’t a good start (hehe). I have to detach myself because I don’t want to overanalyze things. Well it’s more like I have to stop overanalyzing things. Heck, some things may not even mean or worth anything at all. So I'm going to take a hiatus from too much thinking. I have to. Believe me, sometimes too much thinking doesn't help solve anything at all.

The more important matter is I don’t want to succumb to the pressures imposed by whatever thing/event/norm/belief/person/s. I don’t want to pressure myself either. Again, it’s more like I have to learn to stop pressuring myself too much. I need to give myself a break. I have to.

So basta steady lang. I’m just going to take it easy. I'm going to blow up my salbabida, go with the flow, enjoy the ride and see where the tide takes me.

Missed Opportunities

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Something I've picked up from watching Evan Almighty…

God: Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

We often doubt and ask for more thinking that our prayers are left unanswered. Unfortunately, we fail to recognize the subtle signs thrown our way because admittedly, we can be difficult and demanding (and lazy!) by wanting everything to be served to us on a silver platter. Little do we know that sometimes our prayers are answered in the form of opportunities that sadly, for too many times we've taken for granted.

Wiped Out

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

I was all by my lonesome self for the entire whole day because nobody was able to report to work today because of the heavy rains last night.

Wiped out is exactly what happened to our department today.

Who would've known that I would be the last (wo)man standing in our department.

Even I surprised myself and everyone else for that matter.

Opposite Forces

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Sometimes we have to force ourselves to do things that we don’t want to do whereas sometimes we are forced to do things that we don’t want to do…

Well I’m currently being forced to do something that I don’t want to do.

I would like to think I have the freedom of choice. Hence, I’m going to exercise and assert my so-called rights or so I tried.

As it turned out, my decision wasn’t that popular with the majority. Needless to say, I was getting a lot of flack. Can they really blame me for overreacting?

Hayayay…

So to save everyone the trouble, I thought maybe I should’ve just agreed. How bad can it get, right? It may seem like a potentially embarrassing or humiliating experience waiting to happen but I guess I’ll just have to learn to take everything in jest.

Besides if it’s going to make the majority happy and if it’s supposedly for my own good then who am I to complain, right?

It wouldn’t hurt me either so okay, fine.

Bahala na si Batman.

Astig!

Monday, July 02, 2007

Astig ang Transformers. Porma movie. Coolness.

In my books, it is by far the best movie this year (along with Blood Diamond - I gotta give props to Leonardo Di Caprio).

Walang binatbat sila Spiderman, Fantastic Four, Captain Jack Sparrow and Harry Potter.

Sana more characters from the 80's will make a comeback.

To Be or Not To Be

Saturday, June 02, 2007

We admittedly all have our faults and nuisances. Nobody is perfect but it shouldn’t stop us from wanting and striving to become better people. It’s but human nature to want to change for the better.

If something isn’t working then I try to fix it.

If something isn’t going my way then I try to retrace and redirect myself.

If something isn’t right then I try to correct it.

If something isn’t good for me then I try to stay away from it.

If my efforts aren’t enough then I try to go the extra mile.

If I'm not good at something then I study, learn and I practice.

If I lose then I try to accept defeat as gracefully as possible.

If I’m getting into a lot of fights and misunderstandings then I try to adjust and compromise.

If it’s my fault then I try to acknowledge it.

If mahirap akong pakisamahan then I try to adapt and cooperate.

If my actions are going to affect the majority then I try to be considerate.

If I need help then I admit it and I ask. And if someone offers help then I accept.

Bottom line is, we should have to be more open minded. We must. We have to listen to ourselves but more importantly, we also have to learn to listen to what others have to say about us – especially those who are close to us. Sometimes we can be too hard headed, thinking that we know what’s best; thinking that others are out there to get back at us. We become blinded by half truths that we’ve created for our own satisfaction, not knowing that we’re already way off the mark. The truth is a bitter friend after all. However, it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to get another perspective. It may hurt. It can even be ugly but it will make us stronger and eventually make us want to change for the better. Undoubtedly, we are all work-in-progress. Our lives need constant fine tuning especially with all the things happening around us. We should continously reflect and reevaluate on our lives and make the necessary actions towards our betterment.

Change is good. It can be good. We should all want to be better people. We must want to become better people.

Out of Office

Friday, June 01, 2007

Today's my last day at work and I'll be on my mandatory block leave until the 3rd week of June. We'll be leaving on Monday for Europe. I can't wait to go on vacation. I need to take the time out for some well deserved R & R & R - that's some much needed rest, relaxation and recreation for me. Yahoo!

Bleh!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My general sentiment hereafter until further notice is as follows...

Nothing can rain down on my parade.

Read: Nothing. No one.

So sa mga may (masasamang) balak, better luck next time.

Sorry nalang kayo, try harder if you will.

Bleh! :P

Saturday, May 26, 2007

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need."

Dr. Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy

My Own Eye Candy

Friday, May 25, 2007

Natutuwa talaga ako sa tuwing nakikita ko yung crush ko. Solve na ang araw ko. As in!

I think it's nice to have an eye candy. It gives me something to look forward to. Moreso it gives me that sense of excitement. Yung kilig ba.

Siyempre ako lang naman ang nakikilig noh? hehe

Wish ko lang mabunggo siya sa pader at sana pansinin naman niya ako. Wahaha.

Awww

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

On simple gestures that go a long way…

At dinner a while ago, it was just me and my dad left at the table and there were two mangoes. One was sweet and ripe while the other was just the exact opposite (it looked ripe na kasi so my dad had it cut na).

He finished before me and went up already since I was still busy eating my ice cream. It turns out my dad ate the unripe mango and left the sweet one for me to eat.

Na-touch naman ako.

On Work Currently

Friday, May 18, 2007

Our current workload right now is just unbelievable. I can't even find the time in between to drink water or go to restroom breaks! (O.A. ba? hehe) There's way too much work to do. Work seems to pile up by the day. Surprisingly though, I'm okay. I feel okay. In fact, all the ranting and complaining have been kept to a minimum for a week now. My officemate and I were just talking about how things seem to be generally more smooth sailing now. Really, it's too good to be true. We're all sort of like in a happy bubble these past few days. My officemate thinks something is up and our happy bubble won't last long. Well I don't want to jinx it though so I'm leaving it at just that.

Also, we will be having 2 new hires come June and for sure, it's going to be pretty interesting how things will play out.

I Have a Crush on You

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Not that I have the guts anyways but if only our culture dictated early on that it’s okay for women to initiate the first move then our lives would probably be so much easier. It sure beats the hell out of waiting and sometimes getting over the what if's and could have been's.

So what do you do if you have a crush on someone who may or may not know you even exist?

Nothing.

Well for a second or two, I thought about flashing my thousand megawatt smile but I think I’d end up looking more like an idiot. Nyehehe.

Pause Button

Monday, May 07, 2007

I'm putting everything on PAUSE for now. There’s a change of plans because things were suddenly shifting favorably towards my end. I gave it two chances and things surprisingly went my way on both occasions. Henceforth, I’m going to wait it out a little longer and see where the tide takes me. Bahala na. I’ll decide after our trip.

I'm in a chirpy mood right now because my officemate whose mandatory block leave coincides with mine was kind enough to reschedule hers. However, the hardest part of all was to get my boss to approve my additional 5 days leave aside from my mandatory, which I eventually got. It was obvious though that she wasn’t too happy about it. Well I couldn’t care less. It was either she approved or I resign.

Be that as it may, I’m looking forward to our trip. And did I mention I still have a job? Woohoo.

Friday, May 04, 2007

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need. "

Dr. Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy

M.O.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

I’m feeling mixed emotions right now. I feel relieved. I feel anxious. I feel excited. I feel unsure. In the next few days, I will be making a major decision. I’m not even sure if I’m making the right decision and if now is the right time. It has always been at the back of my mind for the past year and a half but I never actually did something about it – not until now. I convinced myself to stick it out a little longer as things might get better. I tried to postpone it as much as I could. In fairness, it wasn’t all that bad. I had my fair share of genuinely good experiences as well. However at the end of the day, there’s just way too much negativity and I ask myself if this is something that I can still deal with 60-70% of the time. I really don’t think I can anymore. The bad seems to be weighing down the good. Most importantly, I don’t think there’s enough room to grow anymore for me – especially not in this kind of environment. It seems like things are going from good to bad to worse. I don’t want to wait for things to be at its worst before I do something. Hence, I have decided with finality. While I’m leaving for good reasons, this was surely not an easy decision and needed a lot of serious consideration. Goodbyes are hard to do no matter what the circumstances are. I honestly still feel bad about leaving despite everything that has happened. But at the end of the day, you gotta do what you gotta do, right?

Change is Inevitable

Saturday, April 28, 2007

My horoscope for today says, "You always suspected that your job was making you crazy, but it never occurred to you that it could make you sick as well. Is it really worth it, dear Scorpio? This is the question you may be asking yourself today. You are fortunate to have talents that apply to several professions. Why not take a closer look at what those other professions are? One way or another, it is clear that change is coming. You may as well direct the manner in which it occurs."

This I can say, change is definitely coming in the horizon. It's a decision that I've been considering for the longest time and I have finally decided. Yes, I'm now ready to move on. I have to move on. I don't exactly have a Plan B yet but nonetheless, I would like to think that this is for the better.

Do I Still Get A Chance?

Friday, April 20, 2007

Before anything else, no I'm not a horoscope addict. It just so happened that my horoscope for the past few days has been hitting the bull's eye.

My horoscope for todays says, "Keep your eyes and ears open to all new possibilities, dear Scorpio. Even if it is not your habit to read the "Help Wanted" section of the newspaper, do so today. You may be surprised by what you find there. Your skills apply to all sorts of jobs; you do not need to limit search to only one profession. You have a good mind that happens to be working in overdrive right now. Use it to figure out the correct next steps for your advancement."

True enough, I received an unexpected call from a prospect employer this afternoon. It's not just some company. It's THE company on my wish list. The thing is, I passed on the opportunity for a possible interview. Shit, I think I might have just blown my only chance.

P.S. Is it still okay to call back? I still have the number on my cellphone.

Duh!

There goes my point smack right in the face of my boss. It came straight from the horse's mouth - the horse being my boss that is. To quote what she said, "Naku papasok pa pala ako sa Sunday. Hindi ko alam ano kailangan kong gawin." DUH! Point #1, she doesn't know because she wasn't the one who attended the damn meeting! Point #2, and she expects us to know? Again, we didn't attend the damn meeting!!!

She then goes around calling IT asking all sorts of questions when she could've simply asked Sab. Sab whom she chose to attend the damn meeting. Sab who even offered sending her the PPT that was only sent to everyone who attended the damn meeting. Is she just plain stupid or is she trying to save her face? That's because I think she knows that asking Sab directly would be like eating her own words and it's definitely going to taste real bitter.

Tupperware No More

Thursday, April 19, 2007

I can’t act all cool and pretend as if nothing happened. Something happened and it wasn’t pretty - especially on my end. People seem to be acting as if nothing happened. People are trying too damn hard to make things appear as if they were back to the way they were. I really don’t think I can fake it anymore. I don’t want to force myself either. What happened yesterday was such a huge deal so give me a break, will you? I don’t feel like making peace just yet and I don’t feel like making the first move either. If it’s going to create more tension and awkwardness then so be it. I’m not going to do anything about it anytime soon. Well not unless they do something about it.

WHAT THE F?!?!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I’m not an angry person. In fact, I hardly get angry at all. Heck, I’m the most diplomatic person I know. I don’t swear either but given the circumstances, WHAT THE F?!?!?!?

I actually could’ve just kept my mouth shut having gotten what I wanted already but I just couldn’t help it. I just had to speak up. It was now or never. They definitely didn’t see this coming – me giving a piece of my mind, that is. My stand has always been for as long as it’s not below the belt (i.e., derogatory, defamatory or harassment of any form), I’d let it go. However, I’ve already kept my silence much longer than I should. My patience is as thin and stretched out as it can possibly be. SO I SPOKE - for the first freakin’ time (screw the damn boat!). The looks on their faces were just priceless. They weren’t happy to say the least. I wouldn’t be happy either if I kept my mouth shut. Something’s got to give. Well eventually.

Here’s the deal…

What the heck, I’m going to name names. I’m too furious to even care right now.

There was a meeting and my boss specifically “chose” Sab to attend this meeting. I believe it is but common sense to think that Sab will be representing our division and more importantly, full responsibility was being entrusted to her by my boss. Therefore, henceforth, samakatuwid, datapwat, whatever the outcome of the meeting – good or bad, favorable or unfavorable, shouldn’t she be the person on top of the situation? After all, nobody knows the details of the meeting more than her. Well not unless somebody else offers to do the job for her.

As it turns out, “somebody” has to go to work on Sunday. Don't ask me the details, I wouldn't really know because I wasn't chosen to attend the meeting. Needless to say, she wasn’t exactly thrilled. I understand her ranting and all that. I’d feel hassled too. Then came Jolee who by the way is closest to her (meaning: ka-trops niya) to the rescue suggesting the bunutan thing. Ang akin lang is, if she has clear intentions of wanting to help her friend then she should’ve offered herself right there and then. Why the hell is she making herself the designated spokesperson of everyone? They could’ve at least asked how the others felt – may consensus man lang diba? Note: Jolee suggested this whole thing but she’s on leave from Friday to Tuesday (including Sunday!).

What put me off the most was how my boss who by the way has the closest relationship with these two (meaning: favorites niya) reacted to the whole thing. She immediately (and easily)agreed to their plans, saying it’s but FAIR. Is she serious?! Where’s the fairness in all that? Yeah, I know the testing on Sunday affects the entire division BUT they should’ve at least asked how we all felt about the bunutan thing. And seriously now, if the meeting called for all representatives to do the testing at the regional office in HK or in a luxurious spa or hotel, would you think there would even be a bunutan issue in the first place? OR using their line of thinking, isn’t it but fair to draw lots now? Yeah right.

Once upon a time, I was exactly in Sab’s shoes. My office space sucked so on the second time that I had to transfer again, there was a proposition to draw lots. Surprise surprise, they rejected the idea. In fact, she was the most adamant of not wanting to draw lots. I didn’t say anything. My boss respected their decision. I respected their decision. So why the hell can’t they respect mine now?

Sabi ko nga, mababaw BUT if you deal with this kind of crap day in and day out, you couldn’t blame me for making a big deal out of this. You couldn’t blame me either for finally speaking up. Enough is enough. Sabi nga nila, tama na sobra na!

So I did just that. I spoke! As expected, my boss didn’t take it sitting down. She was on the defensive - super as in grabe talaga (warning: simultaneous use of superlatives here). In my opinion, she wasn't even making sense. It was like a 2-1 word war featuring my boss and Sab versus me and my lonesome self. The rest were just spectators. I had a lot more to say but it was pointless. Whatever you say or do, my boss will always have something to say (believe me, mahilig siyang mang-bara) and it has always been this way. Furthermore given that our division is an open space, I wanted to be as discreet as possible and yeah, she's still my boss so I can't go all out just yet.

The thing is, nobody from the “affected” side spoke up. To think, they all couldn’t come in on Sunday. Imagine we all had our concocted excuses ready; everyone but Sab (duh!). I was the bad person but I really can’t let this pass. I may feel defeated BUT I feel damn proud for speaking up. It was something that I had to do. It feels good to be able to let at least some of the baggage go. Believe me, it’s been long overdue. I have nothing against Sab. It may seem like I was directly hitting her by my statements but I was merely stating the facts. I wasn’t even being subjective about it. Sabi nga nila, the truth is a bitter friend.

As much as I could, I tried to be considerate of others. I was careful not to step on toes. But if sinasagasaan mo ako, I’ll only return the favor. If you give me crap, I’ll give you crap. Konting respeto lang diba?

RESPECT. Nothing is stopping you from driving wherever you like. In the eastbound lane. In the westbound lane. On the sidewalk? Nothing, really. Nothing except common sense and a mutual desire not to be smashed. Sure there is a little white or yellow line down the middle of the road, but that won’t stop a car very easily. What is stopping us all from crossing it is an unspoken understanding: “I won’t smash into you, if you don’t smash into me.” The line is only a tool to help us define the boundary. Use common sense and understanding. Even when there is no visible line, there are lines we all must respect, crossing over which would be like smashing into other people.

I hope they’re all reading this now. So if you have something to say to me, BRING IT ON! Hell yeah.

P.S. Oh by the way, after all this brouhaha, wanna know who's going to do the testing on Sunday? My Boss! Go figure.

Rising to the Occasion

Monday, April 16, 2007

The stars seem to be in agreement to my plans.

My horoscope for Monday, April 16: Be honest about your feelings. If you have to grit your teeth just to get through this task, it's time to examine those emotions and explore them. Don't be afraid to see all the sides of your personality.

My horoscope for Sunday, April 15: Let's face it - you know what happens when you play it safe and follow all the rules. Isn't it time you did something that was a little scary and risky, but also stimulating and exciting? Step it up. Raise your game.

Bull!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

I’m kind of bothered with this incident at the office yesterday. It really is no biggie – nothing major or life changing. Mababaw pa nga kung iisipin mo. Unfortunately, my reaction to this incident was kind of delayed. Case in point, it’s precisely why I’m writing about it just now. I wasn’t really sure at that time if I was just overreacting or if objecting was the right thing to do - not knowing if the other “affected” people felt the same way too (or if they just didn’t want to bother anymore for the sake of peace and harmony).

Now I know for a fact that I wasn’t just overreacting. I’ve talked to someone and she had the same sentiments as well (including other more serious issues). I’ve also asked people close to me and the answer was really a no brainer. All were unanimous is saying that they would’ve spoken up and rejected the idea for all the right and obvious reasons.

You see, it was supposedly the dilemma of just one person (the responsible person). However, it became everyone else’s problem when this other person (one of the affected) suggested this supposedly brilliant idea of hers – I guess out of sympathy since they were quite close. Sa akin lang, why even bother with the suggestion when obviously it would cause such a huge inconvenience for the majority? If she really wanted to, she could’ve volunteered herself right on the spot and not at the expense of others.

Initially, the idea was thrown around in jest. Yung dinadaan sa biro na sinasakyan naman ng lahat. It was okay at first thinking that it was like a last minute attempt or desparate effort. It even seemed that she (the responsible person) was almost resigned to the fact (but still with a glimpse of hope) that she will most likely have to do this thing that nobody wanted to do for very obvious reasons. If I was chosen and sent out to do something, it is but common sense to think that I was entrusted to bear full responsibility. If I were in her shoes, I wouldn't pass the burden to others because I know it wouldn't be right. If I know that I will have to step on other people's toes, huwag nalang.

What I really didn’t like was how this other person – who was supposed to be “leading” by example – handled the situation. She should’ve known better. Lo and behold, she approved the idea with no hesitations whatsoever. No persuasion, no nothing. I guess iba talaga kapag malakas ka. I mean, seriously now?!? I couldn’t for the life of me fathom her justification of FAIRNESS. "It's but fair. It's the fairest thing. Yaddi yaddi yadda." What the?! Their reasoning is ridiculously way off.

I just can't take it! I have decided to speak up if and when this preposterous idea is brought up again. I strongly feel the need to express my thoughts on this matter. Magalit na kung magalit. Mainis na kung mainis. For too many times, I kept my silence out of respect. However, I’ll be the devil’s advocate on this one. I really don’t think I can take this matter sitting down anymore because if I do, you can now officially call me a martyr, and a stupid one at that.

I know all these may sound vague but I will fill in the details soon (after this whole thing blows over) and I’m sure that most if not all will agree with me on this.

The New and Improved Excel 2007!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

one million freakin' rows! ang saya saya!

More rows and columns, and other new limits

To enable you to explore massive amounts of data in worksheets, Office Excel 2007 supports up to 1 million rows and 16 thousand columns per worksheet. Specifically, the Office Excel 2007 grid is 1,048,576 rows by 16,384 columns, which provides you with 1,500% more rows and 6,300% more columns than you had available in Microsoft Office Excel 2003. For those of you who are curious, columns now end at XFD instead of IV.

Instead of 4 thousand types of formatting, you can now use an unlimited number in the same workbook, and the number of cell references per cell are increased from 8 thousand to limited by available memory.

To improve the performance of Excel, memory management has been increased from 1 GB of memory in Microsoft Office Excel 2003 to 2 GB in Office Excel 2007.

You will also experience faster calculations in large, formula-intensive worksheets because Office Excel 2007 supports multiple processors and multithreaded chipsets.

Office Excel 2007 also supports up to 16 million colors.

Easter Postcard

Sunday, April 08, 2007

From the Sy family to everyone...

c/o Christine's Art (and phone!)

Think Happy

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

www.blissfulcan.blogspot.com

Dork Talk

Sometimes I feel like such a huge dork. But who cares.

Besides everyone's a dork anyway - to varying degrees, that is.

Summer Na!

Friday, March 30, 2007

I can't believe it. It's the last day of March already. Well almost. It's summer na naman! I can feel the sun na. It's scorching hot outside. Time really flies when you're...busy! There's just too much work to do more so in the coming months. Oh well. Grabe ang bilis talaga, Holy Week na next week. No plans for the Holy Week so I'm staying put in Manila. Oks lang, I just need a break from my boss este work.

Coolness

Friday, March 23, 2007

I finally had my laptop fixed yesterday. I've been putting it off for almost 2 weeks already. I actually should have done this earlier. My mom was already making me kulit to go straight to the supplier rather than going through all the computer shops in V-mall. I think I went to more than 5 stores already and nobody could fix my laptop. Having the new hard drive didn't really do anything. Since my entire OS was wiped out, I can't seem to figure out my network connections and I don't have the drivers for my laptop. As a result, my last resort was (to heed my mom's advice) to go back to my supplier. It took me awhile to do so because I was literally submerged with work that I can't even pick up the damn phone. So when I was finally able to contact my supplier, I made arrangements to have my laptop serviced. Although it was such a hassle to go all the way to some small street in San Juan, it was all worth it. As it turns out, my laptop is still under warranty - imagine, after 3 friggin' years?! The bad news is, they couldn't retrieve my hard drive anymore (hay, I don't want to think about it and go through all the emotional stress again, nyahaha). The good news though is, not only do I get to have my laptop fixed and hooked up (with legit software) for free but more so I get to have a brand new spanking IBM hard disk for free! Woohoo! Well I actually just asked for the sake of asking. I wasn't really expecting anything and I wasn't even planning on forcing a bargain like a typical customer would do. It's a good thing I asked. Sometimes it really doesn't hurt to try or in this case, ask.

Resignation

Friday, March 16, 2007

This is one of those days when I just want to drop everything and hand in my resignation letter - well more like shove it in my boss's face.

Thank God it's Friday.

Kaput!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

My laptop just crashed on me. Just imagine three years worth of data (and even memories) all gone. This is so frustrating and stressful! I’ve been to several computer shops already and it seems that my hard drive is no longer recoverable – ayayayay!. In short, puwede ng itapon yung hard drive ko. To think, I’ve been meaning to back-up my files for quite some time now but just haven’t gotten around to actually doing it. Tough luck talaga.

I don’t want to go all sappy and relate this whole thing to philosophical thoughts about life. But really, sa kahit ano mang bagay naman sa buhay, it is really hard to let go of anything that you’ve invested your time and energy in. Like in my case, you can say that I’ve lost everything altogether – all the school and work documents (and yes, even my downloaded music) that I’ve worked hard for to varying degrees and have kept for safekeeping all these years. The most frustrating of all though is losing all the pictures! Those were just irreplaceable – imagine all the captured memories na puwede kong balik-balikan (sana). Hassle talaga.

So I’m back at one – starting again with a clean fresh slate. A brand new hard drive for my laptop, that is. I have yet to use my laptop though since I can’t seem to find the drivers for my laptop. Heck, I was pretty damn sure that the CDs weren’t included in the box. Sorry for my ignorance but ngayon ko lang nalaman what the drivers were for. So here I am now left with no other choice but to use the family desktop which by the way has lost its color function (forgot the technical part of the computer that got screwed up). Unless I find someone with the same laptop as mine, I would’ve to painstakingly download each driver from the internet. Nalito na nga ako sa dami eh. Grrr talaga.

So to everyone…it’s plain and simple. It’s always good to have a back-up. Trust me, I’ve learned my lesson the hard way.