I’m not an angry person. In fact, I hardly get angry at all. Heck, I’m the most diplomatic person I know. I don’t swear either but given the circumstances, WHAT THE F?!?!?!?
I actually could’ve just kept my mouth shut having gotten what I wanted already but I just couldn’t help it. I just had to speak up. It was now or never. They definitely didn’t see this coming – me giving a piece of my mind, that is. My stand has always been for as long as it’s not below the belt (i.e., derogatory, defamatory or harassment of any form), I’d let it go. However, I’ve already kept my silence much longer than I should. My patience is as thin and stretched out as it can possibly be. SO I SPOKE - for the first freakin’ time (screw the damn boat!). The looks on their faces were just priceless. They weren’t happy to say the least. I wouldn’t be happy either if I kept my mouth shut. Something’s got to give. Well eventually.
Here’s the deal…
What the heck, I’m going to name names. I’m too furious to even care right now.
There was a meeting and my boss specifically “chose” Sab to attend this meeting. I believe it is but common sense to think that Sab will be representing our division and more importantly, full responsibility was being entrusted to her by my boss. Therefore, henceforth, samakatuwid, datapwat, whatever the outcome of the meeting – good or bad, favorable or unfavorable, shouldn’t she be the person on top of the situation? After all, nobody knows the details of the meeting more than her. Well not unless somebody else offers to do the job for her.
As it turns out, “somebody” has to go to work on Sunday. Don't ask me the details, I wouldn't really know because I wasn't chosen to attend the meeting. Needless to say, she wasn’t exactly thrilled. I understand her ranting and all that. I’d feel hassled too. Then came Jolee who by the way is closest to her (meaning: ka-trops niya) to the rescue suggesting the bunutan thing. Ang akin lang is, if she has clear intentions of wanting to help her friend then she should’ve offered herself right there and then. Why the hell is she making herself the designated spokesperson of everyone? They could’ve at least asked how the others felt – may consensus man lang diba? Note: Jolee suggested this whole thing but she’s on leave from Friday to Tuesday (including Sunday!).
What put me off the most was how my boss who by the way has the closest relationship with these two (meaning: favorites niya) reacted to the whole thing. She immediately (and easily)agreed to their plans, saying it’s but FAIR. Is she serious?! Where’s the fairness in all that? Yeah, I know the testing on Sunday affects the entire division BUT they should’ve at least asked how we all felt about the bunutan thing. And seriously now, if the meeting called for all representatives to do the testing at the regional office in HK or in a luxurious spa or hotel, would you think there would even be a bunutan issue in the first place? OR using their line of thinking, isn’t it but fair to draw lots now? Yeah right.
Once upon a time, I was exactly in Sab’s shoes. My office space sucked so on the second time that I had to transfer again, there was a proposition to draw lots. Surprise surprise, they rejected the idea. In fact, she was the most adamant of not wanting to draw lots. I didn’t say anything. My boss respected their decision. I respected their decision. So why the hell can’t they respect mine now?
Sabi ko nga, mababaw BUT if you deal with this kind of crap day in and day out, you couldn’t blame me for making a big deal out of this. You couldn’t blame me either for finally speaking up. Enough is enough. Sabi nga nila, tama na sobra na!
So I did just that. I spoke! As expected, my boss didn’t take it sitting down. She was on the defensive - super as in grabe talaga (warning: simultaneous use of superlatives here). In my opinion, she wasn't even making sense. It was like a 2-1 word war featuring my boss and Sab versus me and my lonesome self. The rest were just spectators. I had a lot more to say but it was pointless. Whatever you say or do, my boss will always have something to say (believe me, mahilig siyang mang-bara) and it has always been this way. Furthermore given that our division is an open space, I wanted to be as discreet as possible and yeah, she's still my boss so I can't go all out just yet.
The thing is, nobody from the “affected” side spoke up. To think, they all couldn’t come in on Sunday. Imagine we all had our concocted excuses ready; everyone but Sab (duh!). I was the bad person but I really can’t let this pass. I may feel defeated BUT I feel damn proud for speaking up. It was something that I had to do. It feels good to be able to let at least some of the baggage go. Believe me, it’s been long overdue. I have nothing against Sab. It may seem like I was directly hitting her by my statements but I was merely stating the facts. I wasn’t even being subjective about it. Sabi nga nila, the truth is a bitter friend.
As much as I could, I tried to be considerate of others. I was careful not to step on toes. But if sinasagasaan mo ako, I’ll only return the favor. If you give me crap, I’ll give you crap. Konting respeto lang diba?
RESPECT. Nothing is stopping you from driving wherever you like. In the eastbound lane. In the westbound lane. On the sidewalk? Nothing, really. Nothing except common sense and a mutual desire not to be smashed. Sure there is a little white or yellow line down the middle of the road, but that won’t stop a car very easily. What is stopping us all from crossing it is an unspoken understanding: “I won’t smash into you, if you don’t smash into me.” The line is only a tool to help us define the boundary. Use common sense and understanding. Even when there is no visible line, there are lines we all must respect, crossing over which would be like smashing into other people.
I hope they’re all reading this now. So if you have something to say to me, BRING IT ON! Hell yeah.
P.S. Oh by the way, after all this brouhaha, wanna know who's going to do the testing on Sunday? My Boss! Go figure.
